Happy New Year Everyone!!!!!!!
And Happy Birthday to ME!!!! I turned 20 on New Year’s Eve so that was all kinds of fun! It was the first birthday I didn’t spend at home and I had quite a bit of fun! Because of people being in various places and going various places, I had TWO birthdays! It was pretty freaking sweet. I can’t say it was perfect, there were some things that were…upsetting I suppose one could say, but overall? Great experience.
And about 2012. Everyone says it’s a clean slate, a fresh beginning, that you can start all over.
But let’s get real. You can’t completely start over. If you’re dying of cancer, January 1st doesn’t cure it. If you’re heart is broken, January 1st doesn’t automatically repair it. If you’re in a dead in job, January 1st doesn’t guarantee a promotion. If you’re homeless, January 1st doesn’t magically produce a house for you to live in and make you able to pay the mortgage. Their is always a little chalk dust residue left on the blackboard. But that doesn’t mean the residue should hold you back, if anything, it means you should press forward even harder. Fight your battles, party like you don’t care whose watching, love deeply like you’ve never been hurt, and work your butt off. True, sometimes you have to walk before you can run and baby steps are needed, but still, you have to have the courage to take the first baby step.
Last time I posted about the ring I got for Christmas. I think that’s what my 2012 will be about: Journeys. No, not the shoe store, though I do ADORE those shoes (in case you were wondering), but rather the events that happen in life. The ups, the downs, everything that’s a part of the rollercoaster. So I made my goals for this year:
Blog more- I have found that blogging is a bit cathartic, and it gives me a weekly goal to maintain: One good picture a week, one good meaningful blog a week.
Take better care of myself- Typical, I know. But I need to. And I’m not just talking lose weight, eat better, blah blah blah. I’m talking about that, plus my mental health. Another reason for the Blogging goal is because I need to take care of numero uno first. I’ve been so caught up in so many things, job, school, friends, family, everything, that I’ve forgotten about me. So I’m blogging in order to clear my head and preserve that clear headspace.
Train more- I know living in San Marcos and working as much as I do training the dogs is hard. But it needs to be done, especially Karlie. She has a world of potential, and I am so excited that she has chosen to trust me after all she’s been through.
Love more- I feel like I’ve loved too much this past year, but I haven’t, really. People are going to hurt you, that’s inevitable, but you have to learn how to grow and I couldn’t. So my goal is to grow, to learn, and to love again in 2012. You never stop loving somebody, not really, they always have a small piece of your heart, but you can move on and love someone else, and that’s what I need to do. I’ve closed all my doors, put up huge walls, and refused to let anyone in. It’s time to take the wall down, or at least open the door a crack so someone could attempt to get in. I’m ready for my baby step.
So there’s my New Year’s Blog. Happy New Year everyone. I’m 20, and I’m determined to be at peace this year. What are you going to do?
“Life is about the journey, not the destination.”
~Aubs
P.S.- I love taking pictures of Amanda’s dog! Motion is too cute =P
